I feel like my job is like being in an abusive relationship. Everything is fine, dare I say everything is going well, and BAM, I'm punched in the face, walking around the office with a black eye, telling everyone everything is fine and actually, it's my fault.
Fuck.
Friday was a reeeallly good day. Like, I left work a half an hour late, and I was smiling. That's major.
I ended up in a meeting with BossBoss, and while stuck in her office watching her write an email and take phone calls, something must had triggered in her to pay attention to me. (maybe she saw me yawning??) And that's when we got talking. We talked, I complained, she listened. We planned, we strategized, we got serious. What I'm doing is not the job of a receptionist. She understood my complaints, and vocalized how much she appreciates me and how proud of me she is. I stepped up to a challenge and I nailed it. Good things were coming my way.
Shut up, I'm not even kidding. Those were HER words. Well, maybe not that last part, but I have a feeling that good things are coming my way.
So, how could my high be ruined? Oh easily, today is Monday. 3 days after we talked.
A couple days before my meeting (I think it was Wednesday, maybe Thursdsay), I sat in on a meeting with NG and BossBoss. I was there mostly for morale support, and my God, she needed it. Bossboss tore her apart. (Someone got fired and bossboss was having a "rough" day because of it, so therefore, she took it out on NG. Sucky, but that's unfortunately how she works. VERY annoying.) Anywho, I got thrown into it too when Bossboss scolded both of us about slacking on making visitor badges for guests. I admit, I never make them. I hate doing it, I don't know how to spell people's names so I just skip that part.
Next time there's a huge meeting going on that's going to include non-company attendees I'm to ask the creator of the meeting to send the guest list. That way reception has it, we can print the names out before hand, blah blah blah. And that's probably exactly when I tuned out.
So today, there was a huge meeting with people from outside the office. Guess who didn't get a guest list. Guess who totally forgot. Guess who got yelled at by Bossboss.
Me.
"Didn't we just talk about this? Didn't you say you were going to get the lists? WHY didn't you"
Um... I dunno. I forgot? Meh. NG tells me not to worry about it, but Bossboss is right. I did say I was going to do that, so technically I'm at fault.
This always happens at work. Whenever I feel good about something and my "relationship" is going well, my "boyfriend" knocks me around and I'm stuck sulking with a black eye. I'm obviously not trying to joke around about abusive relationships, but I honestly can see how one can get stuck in a relationship like that. It's good, it's bad, it's good, it's bad. You deal with it. I know tomorrow everything will be fine, and I'll probably see Bossboss and she'll be nice and act like nothing happened.
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